For All The Wrong Reasons

For all the wrong reasons, I did stuff! No not the kind of stuff you are thinking about. For the resume, for acceptance, for this girl, for this boy, and for FEAR. Maybe the title of this post should be fear. But no. Not that I don't like to do the "stuff" I speak of. I do! I really do! I love to love! I love to give! I love to help, to share, to blog, to create. But then when everything begins to feel like work and some unnecessary pressure from somewhere falls on you, your passion, my passion goes down hill. Why? Why did I let it get this far? FEAR. Not this word again. Yes FEAR. 

We do things, things we already love to do, because we let the world tell us that to be accepted, to prosper, to succeed, we have to do them. These same things that we were doing in the first place. The difference is this time they are not telling us to do something we don't do. However, we stop doing it because we love it and start doing it because we fear and then we start doubting ourselves. This fear suddenly drives out the passion. You stop freely doing what you love and start doing it for approval and most of the time end up changing something crucial and unique. 

I want to love freely and make people laugh not because I want people to like me but just because I love to love and love to see the people around me happy. Now if they don't like me that's fine. I still get the satisfaction of doing something I love to do. I want to volunteer because I love helping out, not because it looks good on my resume. The ever so amazing resume. Pause for a second and just think about the many things you have done just to go put on your resume. Hello College students! I want to blog because I love to share not because it will impress my future employer. Hello Public Relations, Broadcasting and Journalism majors, this is your shoutout right here! This particular one hit me so hard that I completely stopped blogging. (Casually inserted the reason why I have been absent for so long. See what I did there). 

Don't get me wrong. Getting results, rewards and money yes money from your talent and stuff you love to do is great. Hey praise God for such opportunities! However the moment we start doing it just for these reasons, all these wrong reasons, the passion and enjoyment and everything we get from naturally doing these things is reduced to fear. Fear of not being enough. Am I doing it right? Maybe I should do it this way instead. They will like it better this way. Who are they and why do they have to like it!

So I will love, give, help, dance, blog, make jokes (both funny and not funny), be friendly and everything else I naturally love to do. Not because I want to get this job, this friend or whatever else. But for all the RIGHT reasons, for the reason that THIS ME!

xxx 

Candy.